Lyrics

I've gotten pretty good at being quiet

I tend to blend into walls

People forget I'm there

A silent observer who watches everything get done

I know all the things you've done

I've gotten pretty good at biting my tongue

And keeping my mouth shut so I don't feed the fire

Protecting my own peace and watch as the bridge gets burnt 

'Cause you're not the one who's hurt

You're the one who threw it all away

You're the one who decided not to stay

And now you're just a stranger with all my secrets

We collided our paths were meant to cross

We've lived such parallel lives, I swore you'd read my mind

Hopeless, devoted, I gave you everything I had

But you never gave it back

You're the one who threw it all away

You're the one who decided not to stay 

And now you're just a stranger with all my secrets

And honestly I wish you all the best

I hope one day I get to know the rest

To say goodbye

And just know why

You're the one who threw it all away

You're the one who decided you couldn't stay 

And now you're just a stranger

You're the one who threw it all away

You're the one who decided not to stay 

Now you're just a stranger with all of my secrets

With all my secrets

Father you swore we'd be free from this place

That these fragile wings would keep us safe

Father you built me wings made of wax

And told me to stay close behind

But father the sun

How it shines, how it sings

The way it breathes life into my chest

I can't ignore it yet

Father tell me 

Why the sun enraptures me 

Let me make my own mistakes

Father leave me 

Let the sun unravel me

Let my choices seal my fate

Catch me I'm falling

Hurling through the clear blue sky

I should have heeded the warnings

My feathers fall slowly 

Leaving me behind

Each one a glimmer of mo(u)rning

But father the sun

How it shines, how it sings

The way it breathes life into my chest

Now what do I have left

Father tell me

Why the sun enraptures me

Let me make my own mistakes

Father leave me 

Let the sun unravel me 

Let my choices seal my fate

You know me so well

You knew that I would try to touch the sun

You watched as I fell

Flailing my featherless arms

Father tell me

Why the sun enraptures me

Let me make my own mistakes

Father leave me 

Let the sun unravel me

Let my choices seal my fate

Father save me from myself

Father save me from myself

Father save me from myself

Father please

Father save me I'm your son

Father save me I'm your son

Father save me I'm your son

Father please

Live by your own set of rules and then change them

Prove to yourself that you're worth more than this

Write your own story and live on the pages

Good can come later first make it exist

And let the world crack me open 

Just let me feel all there is to feel

I've only got one life to live

Just let me feel it all

Because everyday is all that there is

Everyday is all that there is

Learn to outgrow things that no longer serve you

Feeling your joy's not betraying your grief

Say what you must even when no one listens

Learn that the words on their own are enough

And let the world crack me open

Just let me feel all there is to feel

I've only got one life to live

Just let me feel it all

Because everyday is all that there is

Everyday is all that there is

And if art is where what we survive survives

Then I will keep on writing

I know that this word will outlive you and I 

But I'll just keep on living

And let the world crack me open

Just let me feel all there is to feel

I've only got one life to live

Just let me feel it all

Because everyday is all that there is

Everyday is all that there is 

Everyday is all that there is 

There's a tightness in my chest that just won't leave

I've been biting my lips until they bleed

I don't really love my reasons anymore

I'm keeping myself busy so my mind can't take control

But I'm taking my time

Fall fakes the feeling of being home

I find comfort in the sameness of the home that I've grown

I drive across the Carbon County line

And I'm taking my time

There's something unexplainable about being intimately alone

I am viciously aware of how I've grown

People say I hold myself taller than when I left

That might be the only change that I've kept

How do you face the things that you're running from

Leaving is easy when it's the only thing you've done

I've only got ten miles left to go

Only fifteen minutes and then I'll be home

I don't wanna go back to the girl I was before

Who was terrified of conflict and of disappointment more

Because the world will keep on spinning when my feet walk out the door

And the place that I belong to isn't this house anymore

But I'll take my time

I'll give myself time